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Thursday

"Balance between Soul, Mind and Body"


"The most important relationship you have in your life,
is the relationship you have with yourself"
~Diane Von Furstenberg
Hi Dear Readers,

In this post I wanted to share with you my journey of self-developing process. But first, let me explain where I was and where I am now...

On December 2008, I was 27 years old decided to leave my five years full time job and dedicate 100% to finish school and my self-development. The decision was tough and I am sure you can understand this, because I pay my own expenses, it was my first professional job; I was alone in this country.

My body and mind were screaming to me; asking me to take this decision. I couldn't handle this lifestyle anymore. For almost three years I was working and going to school in the same time. I guess things were going acceptable in both places. At school, I was obtaining average good grades and at work, I was obtaining promotions. However, one day when things went worst after finding that someone that I love in my family was really sick.

I remember really clearly how that day, the left side of my body was dumb but I didn’t stop and instead, I was trying to finish work and going to school for night classes. I realized that couldn't find me anymore, I didn’t know who I am; I was like a zombie walking for one place to another. I took vacations to visit my family who lived in another country (I moved to this country by myself) but this couldn’t help the feeling of unhappiness and emptiness I had.

Many people were keeping reminding me to take care of myself because even under my eyes were forming puffy purple bags. To make it worse, I was not happy of how I look and how I feel. I didn’t want to see myself in the mirror because I knew I was neglecting taking care of myself. Thus, I took the tough decision and left my full time job.

Since my decision to quit my job, things are much better but I am still in the process of recovery. Currently, I am still in school really close to graduate. I went for 3 months to Europe to study abroad and also took the opportunity to backpack around Europe. On the beginning of this year, 2010 I decided to participated in a 6 months co-op internship within my career field.

Regarding my mind and body, I don’t have the puffy purple bags anymore, I feel like smiling instead of crying from the nothing, I am starting practicing yoga and running at least 3 times a week. I am still in the fight to loss all the weight I put in the 5 years of work/school. I feel more motivated to live, creative, special and of course happier than ever.

Something that is still a challenge is to be more open and friendly to people. I used to be a social butterfly but I lost that on me. However, I am working on bringing this back and I can see in small steps that I am going in the correct path.

I am reading many self-developing books to help me in this process, reading magazines, attending seminars, watching videos, talking to different key people and writing this blog to help me in this process. I wish I can help others with my experience.

In a few words: “I am working hard to find the balance between my soul, mind and body”